I had a lot on my mind this past few weeks, and never dared to make the most out of the time when you talk to me. Or even look at me. I don't know why, though and it confuses me too. I never wanted for this to happen. But, it happened.

I realized things today.

Realization #1
What we were before would only be a memory. Though it still pains me to accept this. I don't know if you're trying to bring it back. All I know is, I gave up on it already.

Realization #2
I still cry for the same stupid reason. And waking up feeling like you just want to lie down all day. Let your body rot until you don't breathe.

Realization #3
I act like I don't know you. I don't know why, I don't know how I do it. I just hate it. And yet, I'm still doing it.

Those were pretty much going through my head awhile ago. And yesterday. :(

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