Every atom of me, misses you.

I miss you. I really do. I miss it when you approach me. I miss it when you effort to take my home even though it's late. I miss it when you actually talk to me. I miss the chills when you try to hold my hand. I miss it when you fix my hair. I miss it when you play with my shoes. I miss it when you walk me home. I miss it when I can't remove my phone from my hand because you might call or text. I miss it when you spend every single time with me.

I really don't know what happened. Was it the break up that made us feel like this. Or is it when you started to keep your distance from me. Everytime I think about this, about what we are actually now, all I get is this blank stare. Then, I'd suddenly cry.

Confession #1
I had issues. And I wasn't very open to you after the break up. I really don't know, but after all that all I wanted was for us to be back to where we started. I was really happy back then. I don't know why, but I never thought of committing myself once again. But I did, for you, actually.

Confession #2
I miss the times where simple things would make me smile. That's what I'm asking for now. I don't need you to give me things on monthsaries or some special occasions. All I wanted was your company. You know, you're like my best friend -slash- boyfriend at the same time.

Confession #3
Everytime I receive a text message from some random person, I kinda wished it was you. You and your sweet words. That's what made me like you a lot. It's not your dimples and your smile and you and your guitar tricks. It's actually those sweet, thoughtful letters you gave me.

Confession #4
I'm still jealous about your previous love interest. That's why sometimes I suddenly don't approach you. I can't help it. I really can't, I'm just scared that you would leave me for her. I don't know if you can do that, but just in case. I'm really upset about it. But I can't do anything. My pessimist side is showing.

Confessions #5
I can't stop the pride thing. I really can't. I want to. Wish it was that easy to remove my pride. Guess if I've been gentle about your feelings then I guess we won't be in this difficult situation. I'm kinda trying to lose the pride thing, starting it off here.

Confession #6
I am still inlove with you. Deeply and madly inlove with you. That's why I acted stupid. I never thought it would cause you pain. And yeah, sorry. I love you.


I really don't know why I'm typing this. Maybe it's because, I know you won't read this here. And I want to pour everything out before I go insane.

Ui babe. I love you. IRLY & INLY I hope you wouldn't too. I'm not placing this because you messaged this. I'm saying this because you just said the words that I was trying to say long before, but was afraid to say.

Labels: ,